I have recently stopped caring about people enough to listen to what they have to say. (I am working on snapping out of this mess)
My self confidence has been eroded majorly this past year, and I know it is because I have been unemployed in the traditional sense for twelve months.
Starting a small business did not do much to help my self-confidence, because JostWrite is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. However, ironically, I am proud of me.
I get bored rather too quickly, and I am afraid JostWrite might just be one of those things I lose interest in.
I am sure I want to get married one day, but my heart cringes at the idea of getting married more than it skips with joy at the thought. I do think and hope this would change when I meet the right person. I am currently praying for a desire for marriage.
As friends continue to get engaged, married and have children, I wonder why I lack a desire for marriage. As my 20's comes to an end in a few years, I am thinking "OH SNAP."
I have been in one relationship my entire life and in love once. I have a nagging sense I do not know how to be in a relationship.
I hate hate hate pitching. I would rather sit at home and have my clients come to me.
I am a carefree and spontaneous person, but after i moved to DC, I became very critical of my decisions and I second guess myself a lot. This was one of the reasons I was glad to move out of DC, I felt I was loosing myself especially the brave and good part of me.
My decision to move back home to Minneapolis was a good one, because it helped me close out a love chapter I had been reading for 7 years (I pray it is closed for ever), but I am contemplating moving back to DC (Oh Lawdy). I am also beginning to think maybe my move to Minneapolis was not well thought out.
Some days I hate my hair
I do not like getting dressed up, and I am happy to walk around in skinny jeans and flats. I am actually the most comfortable in workout pants and flip-flops.
I realized a few months ago that I chose my Masters in Public Health for all the wrong reasons. I did think I had a desire for it. I am in a place where I don't know if I want to do anything with it, and that has kept my job search at a stand still.
I am very prideful and would rather collapse and die than ask anyone for help. In the past year, I have had to learn that I am not an island and people are here to help me. This past 12 months left me questioning a lot, but it made me humbled and vulnerable. (My mom was the first to call me out on this)
I never use to struggle with jealousy, but lately I do. I find myself walking around with a discontent and dissatisfied feeling about my life.
I talk and sing to myself a lot on the streets. People have stopped and given me the weird look too many times than I want to admit. I also find myself acting out scenes while I walk to the train station.
I am freaking scared of driving in a car all by myself. I can drive, but I have never owned a car or license. The first time I went for my driver's licence test, I ran a red light. The second time I got into a stupid argument with the DMV guy, and I have never gone back.
Some weeks, I go a few days without getting out of bed. I could toss, turn and read a book all day in bed. I did that two weeks ago, and last week I decided to get up and get to work. I feel more like myself now.
It takes a load of motivation for me to do anything on any given day
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