I was sitting across from a police officer when it first occurred to me that many roads got me here. She was answering a question I had earlier asked, and I was taking notes. I'm currently completing some work for an organization based here in Minnesota, hence the interview with the officer. As I listened to her clarify a point, I realized one thing was certain, there was no other place I would rather be and there was no other thing I would rather be doing.
When I made up my mind to go for it and build my vision for JostWrite, my biggest question was "how in the world would I find clients? I wondered if I was ready for the rejections that accompanied job search and building a business. Why in the world would I want to attempt both at the same time? I wasn't exactly sure what my writing niche would be, and I also questioned if I knew how to successfully pitch an idea? Heck, how do I come about a good idea? But I'm glad I did not let those fears hold me back. I have pitched, and I have survived. Actually, I have pitched and I have thrived.
A few days ago, I was cleaning out my email account and came face to face with all the email rejections I had received in the past two years from potential employers and clients. As I read through and deleted each message, It occurred to me how far I had come and how much further I could go if I keep making sure the word "No" loses its power over me. I read as one dream job after another said "No, we decided to go with someone else." or "No, your resume was impressive, but another candidate had more experience than you did." I read as potential clients rejected one pitch idea after another.
Today, as I sat across from the police officer, It was clear to me that this is one of my many yeses. I'm privilege to have a few clients who have signed on to JostWrite. I'm amazed that organizations would even take the time to meet with me and hear me talk about crafting their vision into words. I usually expect the janitor at the door with a broom and dustpan ready to sweep me out. As I do my best to pitch ideas and my skills, I still get nervous about calling or sending out an email. It is way stressful to wait for a call back or an email response. Some nights, I wake up every two hours to check my phone and email for a message...it is like nursing a baby. No pun intended. The noes make me sad, but the yeses keep me moving.
I am dedicated to improving my craft, because I want to be the one that an employer or client decides to go with. I am also dedicated to stepping into the doors opened before me, I know that on the path of many noes are a lot more yeses. Opportunities open up when we choose to step out regardless of our fears. One of my many goals this year is to "Be Bold, Strong, Confident and of Good Courage." It is my desire to ask for what I want and need regardless of the fears that lurk around. Maybe if I hear enough noes and keep it moving, I will realize that it is a powerless entity on my path to success and growth.
As I keep searching for a full-time job, while pitching and networking on behalf of JostWrite, I am excited about the yeses that are bound to come from asking. Asking will not kill me; it will not render me immobile. I think, it will make me stronger. Asking will rip the crippling mask off of rejection, and make me see it for what it truly is:powerless.
The journey of thousand miles begins with the first step.