If you read my post yesterday, you probably detected that I was in a funky place, and I had been for a while. There are so many things I'm afraid to tell you even as many bloggers, thanks to Jess Constable, ran free with that theme in the past few months. Reading what others are afraid of enabled me to come face to face with my struggles as a woman and entrepreneur. It also helped me realize that we are all walking the path of creating our lives individually and collectively. There truly is nothing new under the sun.
I have thought about writing my own "Things I am Afraid to Tell You" post, but I chickened out, and I am still not ready. It is titled that dramatic header for a reason...:) Scary huh?
I mentioned yesterday that I had let fear and insecurity bully me into inaction, because I believed the lie that nothing good was ever going to happen...so why do something? Taking it a step further and deeper, I let the lie grow into "I have no talent or skills to offer." It was okay when these lies surfaced in the past, and I got to work to prove that good things happen and my talents and skills were been put to use.
However, I had stopped taking control of my thoughts lately, and I had let the lies take deeper root and led to inaction. I stopped pitching. I stopped writing like I should. I stopped blogging with all my heart. And as the projects I was working on came to their end, other projects were not emerging because I had stopped working, pitching and connecting. As I type this, I laugh because I was working on projects that I had pitched and earned while these lies were taking roots and building homes in my mind. Ironic!
Yesterday, I decided enough was enough. There is nothing more fruitless than doing nothing and getting angry, frustrated or depressed when nothing happens. I decided to take back my life and take it back by combining my faith with work. I am getting off my stinky butt yet again and committing to action. I seem to hang around this theme of slacking and then re-awakening alot, because I am much more joyful when I am writing, pitching and connecting. I am not sure why I always run from the very thing that brings me joy.
I have lined up a few action steps and pitch ideas for this month. I am rooting for me.
It is definitely a thousand miles journey, but each step I take gets me closer.
Beloved, You are Loved Absolutely!