I have no Excuse...

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Today, I do not feel like working.

I don't feel like blogging, writing, hustling or marketing.

I'm aware that I have an article draft due on Wednesday and another big project draft due end of this month. Regardless of these two deadlines, I'm still yearning for my bed and for sleep. I was awoken in the middle of the night by a strange noise, and it took hours of tossing and turning dreaming about Micheal Ealy's character from "Think Like a Man" to fall back asleep. However, I had to wake up in the wee hours of the morning for a doctor's appointment. Yawn!

I need to decide what to do right after I publish this blog post...go to bed for a crash nap or keep working? I have another doctor's appointment at 6pm and that means if I choose a crash nap, I probably would not get work done until after my appointment.

This is an aspect of working from home and building my own business that challenges me. I am the boss of my time and no-one is sitting around monitoring my every move. It calls for a new level of discipline and self control. It also calls for a new way to manage my time. As a new small business owner, I do not know it all and I do question a few of my moves. I am blessed that doors have been opened for me in many places, and I am meeting people who have been generous with their time and Rolodex.

I am doing my best not to take it for granted, and I did get a wake-up call from the love of my life last week. This call prompted by several warning signs led to my I Made a Decision post from last week. In that post, I talked about how I have decided to focus my energy, cut down on my to-do list and get back on a routine. I also decided to hold back on some other creative and entrepreneurial ideas I am toying with outside of JostWrite. With that decision and follow through actions, I realized I can get a lot more done while reducing my stress level.

I can definitely go back to to bed, because I am kinda my own boss. Then I think of what it takes to build and grow a dream. I think of my wake-up call from last week and also all the clients who are waiting on me to deliver. I realized "To whom much is given, much is expected." 

It takes hard work and determination alongside passion to row even when my hands are tired. I am new at this, but I am learning through JostWrite that you can never let your dreams or purpose lie dormant in your heart or in a word document because of fear, uncertainty or fatigue laziness. I am beginning to realize that even when I am uncertain of the direction to take or fearful of what might happen or tired out of my mind, the key is to begin and keep going. To start, to fall, to trip, to stumble and to get up after each fall and keep going day by day and step by step.

With that said, I'm going to publish this blog post and work on one of my pending projects. I'll start on it...that's all that matters.  

Beloved, You are Loved Absolutely!