A new writing project came calling a few weeks ago; this project is new in every sense of the word. After I have written for different kinds of clients, experience fear on many levels and made my share of mistakes, you would think I'll be adjusted to getting calls from new clients or for a different kind of project.
However, my first reaction to every call, email, text or face to face conversation about a new project is a leap in my chest that signifies fear and anxiety. This leap is ALWAYS accompanied by one question "Can I do this?" It is like I'm not settled and confident in my writing like I use to be. This is a residual feeling from struggling with self identity and confidence issue in the past three years. Even as I rise out of that messy phase, the feelings still linger, and I have had to choose.
I have had to choose to do what I am afraid to do. Lately, I am choosing to do the things that jolt my heart and make my pits sweat. If I want to get what I've never got, I have got to do somethings I've never done. I accepted the project not because the fear in my heart diminished, but because I know I can do it regardless of what fear says. It would require hard work and burning the midnight candle, but I am going to get it.
What is one thing you are always afraid to do but do anyways?